Ruggybuggy
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Me and my wife drove down to Florida to get away from the cold and snow for the next month. I got the bike loaded into the truck and in three days we are down here with my inlaws enjoying the weather and I'm planning a 3-4 day tour on the bike of northern Florida and southern Georgia. On Sunday afternoon I get a call from my mother telling me my brother took his life by suicide. He hung himself in a shed at the back of the house. He had a fight with his girl friend and she left the house overnight and came back in the afternoon to find him. My brother had made many bad choices in his life and the girlfriend he chose was one of the worst which ultimately led to his death. He had backed himself into a corner financially and emotionally and saw no way out. He was 53 years old. He was my big brother and was always there for me. If I needed his help he was there no questions asked. I have lost that. When he left he has taken a big part from me. I no longer feel whole. I thank God I'm out of town because I know if I had to confront his ex girlfriend it would not end well. My brother had pleaded with her that day not to go out for the night drinking and spending the little money they had. She knew he was valnurable and she left anyway. Our family is one of honesty and compassion for others. My parents have done many good deeds for strangers. They raised my sister, my brother and myself to be compassionate to others. I have found the limit to my compassion. My parents told me not to come back home and spend my time in Florida, there is nothing that I can do back home. I feel that that is probably for the best because if I'm at home and I cross paths with her it would not end well. My brother is to be cremated and the service will be held when I get back. I have three weeks to heel and try to forgive and I pray to God that I can accomplish this. We live in a small town and I'm fearful I may cross paths with her. I emailed her and told her that I will never forgive her and never make contact with my family or myself. If you see me coming move to the other side of the street.
I sorry for sharing this with everyone here. I've talked to my wife about this and that has helped but I have a hate for this women that is deep and dark. Nothing I've ever experience. I've prayed for strength and I know time will heel.
Thanks for listening.
I sorry for sharing this with everyone here. I've talked to my wife about this and that has helped but I have a hate for this women that is deep and dark. Nothing I've ever experience. I've prayed for strength and I know time will heel.
Thanks for listening.